Ohhh, boy...

So I'm working on a shit-load of homework right now. (I'm posting this from my new computer- it's pretty cool except the "a" key is stiff.) Anyway...Just wanted to let off some steam really quickly...

I'm so frustrated right now! It's ridiculous. Okay, so let me gather my thoughts here for a second...
So there are three bisexual girls on campus. I'm kind of ruling out one person, just because she's really awkward and kind of self-depreciating, not to mention, she's a stick (and a grade ahead of me- done dating older girls.)

So that leaves me with two others. So, a long while ago, I had a crush on person 1. Then that wore off, mostly because she's really inexperienced, and she doesn't have a lot of sex appeal. So then I developed a sort of crush on person 2, because she's very sexual, and very tall, and very dominant. I felt like there was something there, but I could have easily made it up. But tonight I was hanging out with a couple of friends and person 1, and we were watching an "It Gets Better" video, and then we were talking about girls, and being gay, and I showed person 1 the Kinsey Scale, which I know I've talked about on here before. So she started to talk about how her sexuality isn't so black and white, and how "there is a big difference between a person I want to cuddle with and a person I want to have sex with". And even though I know she wasn't being as literal as I'd like her to have been, I still wanted to be flirty and ask what the difference was. But I had to leave, and I didn't want to do that in front of my two friends. So I don't know what to do now.

And most of all, I still don't know whether I've developed these crushes because I'm on the rebound, or sexually frustrated, or because I genuinely like these girls. And I really just want someone to make out with right now. Which sucks. Because that's not really a readily available resource. So...What to do? PLUS I've heard that person 2 only likes me as a friend, but that was prompted by someone's asking if we were dating, so I don't really know if that's how she actually feels. And God knows about person 1. Neither of them have dated for real before, thought person 2 has online dated, which ended badly for her.

So maybe I'll just be frank and bring up the subject of her preferences with person 1. I don't really know. I just would really love to be with someone right now, and I've got to do something about it. And I still miss Jess terribly, but I don't know where that is going, and though I professed to her so strongly that I wanted to stay single, I mostly don't anymore, though that's quite possibly a temporary feeling. Mostly I just want a friend with benefits, which is a pretty bad thing to want, but that's just how it is. I want someone to make out with, without all the responsibility of a committed relationship. I want to be a fucking teenager. So that's that I suppose. Updates to come if any new occurrences arise.

So yeah, back to math. See you later! Love, Grace.