“I don’t really know what kind of girl I am.” - Juno

I hear ya, Juno.

I'm tired, confused, and lonely.

Reading these books always does that to me...

Why do I read them?

"Because you're a loser", would be Squall's immediate answer. She'd be kidding. But that's what she'd say.

I read them to learn. I read them to learn about people like me. To enter their world and leave my own. I read them to escape my life. Which is odd, because, compared to most, I have a nice life. You could even call it "cushy".

My college is paid for, I have a warm bed at night, a great Mom, a nice "fatherly unit", my house is nice, clean, dry, and properly heated and cooled during the appropriate season. I'm smart. I have rich grandparents, my Dad doesn't hit me, and my stepmom gives me money. I can afford nice clothes and good food. I have friends. I have the most liberal, lenient Mother in the entire world.

And yet...I can't come out to her. So many opportunities have presented themselves...and every time I chicken out.

I can't seem to bring myself to say it. Even Squall told Destiny (Destinee?) Andrews that I'm a lesbian. I just waved my hand and grinned like an idiot. I don't know why I can't say it out loud! It's not that big of a deal. I know that. Well, to some people it's a big deal, but I know, I know for sure that my Mom wouldn't care, would still love me anyway, and I still can't say it. Ugh. I'm so stupid...

I think Juno said it best.
“I don’t really know what kind of girl I am.” - Juno