I Tried

When I was little, I was on every sports team my community offered. I did basketball, soccer, I even wanted to go out for football, but Mom wouldn't let me. I had golf sets and a bat, ball and tee. I was on swim team, in dance class, and I did gymnastics. I played, rode my bike, and ran around all day. I was full of energy. And even though I wasn't the best at whatever it was I was doing, I had fun.

But after a while, playing by yourself isn't so fun anymore. And I never had anyone to play with. So I guess I just lost the will to go outside and have fun. And now that I haven't done it in years, I don't think I can anymore. Now, even when I do have someone to play with, I just don't think I'll be able to, and I don't want to ruin their fun by screwing up. So I just put on a sad face and don't do it. I want them to think that I don't want to do it, not that I can't. And maybe I can. But I think I might be too scared to try.

But that's just my problem, isn't it? When I was little, I was brave. But somehow I lost that, and now I'm scared of almost everything. I'm too scared to even try to get over my fears. And I know people hate me for that. But I just don't know how to change. -me